i take it his name includes a "J"?
when it comes to mental health stuff i cant offer you much help, im lucky enough to be fairly normal in that regard besides some small issues with anger.
the only advice i can give you there is to accept that in some ways you fucked up, and that theres no undoing that. the best you can do for him if you no longer talk to him is to make sure you never do that to anyone else. mind, im not the type to forgive myself for a fuckup easily either.
>But all I really care to know about is if he's doing ok and if I didn't hurt him as much as I think I did
do you have any means of contacting the dude? i dunno if you actually want to, but if we are thinking of the same guy then i can let him know you wanna talk for you.
>Whats the point of having a relationship if you can't reliably have your lover there with you to help you through the worst times
im gonna give you a tip fam, drop the entire idea of LDR. they dont work, not without being cemented IRL first for a prolonged period and having frequent meetups. me and my bf did a bit of LDR at one point, but i made a point of moving in with him 2 years into it when that was viable.
as for that last bit, the only thing i can say there is be patient. the right man might not come to you immediately and there might be things that get in the way. ive been through some rough times with my bf, ive been up and down dramatically on the scales when shit got rough irl for me, which of course has all fucking manner of knock on effects in the relationship, and weve spent a year on the dole together unable to find work. you can work through tough times together, but only if youve got that strong fucking connection built, and you genuinely care about each other enough to see the hard times through, even if its one sided.
honestly, youre really young. when i was 20 i thought i had a good chance of being a permavirPost too long. Click here to view the full text.