Well, I'm fucking sick of it, I discovered porn at around age 9, give or take a year, and ever since I've turned into a social recluse. using pornography and masturbation as a stress reliever. Ignoring my problems only caused me more stress, leading me deeper into the hole. I've jacked off to about everything you could think off, but I'm still able to climax to clothed women and just my imagination, oddly enough. Of course the more perverse porn I've seen has burned itself into my mind, unfortunately. I've come to see that it's not just fapping that has a negative influence on my life, it's a lack of healthy routine and too much time on the internet.
I also have a much more shameful confession, I made an account on nofap.com, and I must say, it fucking sucks. I don't know what I expected from a forum but jesus, I can't talk about anything there, just not my kind of people. I'm hoping to find something more by writing my journal here.
I'm not sure if I should write these at the beginning of the day or the end, perhaps both?
Goals for today:
>Pushups, varied sets and reps to failure
I used to lift consistently when I was in high school, and for a while after I was out, until I got a hernia while benching. I've decided to start the 5/3/1 power lifting program tomorrow, it will give me something to do, and I always loved lifting.
B:225 S:255 D:275