Why haven't you succumbed to suicide yet? I'm not saying that you should, but with how often it's talked about on this board and elsewhere it's clear that there's something vital stopping you from finally doing it. Is it your family? Do you still hold out some hope that things will get better for you, no matter how unlikely? For me, it is my rooster. He is the only good thing about my life and my only friend that has never failed me in some way. My only friend, period. When he eventually dies I'll have lost the only thing that makes my life worthwhile and gives me a reason to leave my room, so at that point there will be nothing left to do but commit suicide. I have no idea how much longer he'll live. He was already an adult when I got him, so it could be another five years or twelve. If it weren't for him I would be dead already. The world in 2019 is sick. I know it's always been ugly, but it seems things get worse and worse every year. People get more heartless, and more hedonistic all the time. Children are taken to pride parades and dance in drag on the stages of New York gay bars, they're raised by technology and cartoons specifically designed to make them dumber. I can't even have a conversation with my 12 year old sister about anything other than the latest internet meme she heard of. I'm so fucking tired of everything. I don't want to live to see what this rotten world will look like in ten or fifteen years. The only thing that makes it bearable is my rooster, so when he's gone that will be it for me.
Not everyone here genuinely wants to kill themself.
t. enjoys life mostly
What is your life like?
My mother, my pets and the fact that i live far away from degenerate cities like Jew York.Things do get worse each year because people equate freedom with degeneracy and ignore the fact that they are losing their important rights like self defense and free speech.
They think that they are free just because they can be openly degenerate.
I don't like that you call homosexuals gay because that's an old English word for happy.Most of my sadness comes from the lack of female companionship because i know that even if i attracted a woman she would most likely be a whore who would cheat on me and break my heart.
>I don't like that you call homosexuals gay
I know. I only used it there in the context of homosexual nightclubs. Gay being hijacked as a word to describe homosexuality is just another example of the perversion of language.
>What is your life like?
Not him but i enjoy my life about half of the time.
>I am 25 and i live with my parents in the middle of nowhere in some European country.I still go to uni because i was a NEET for several years, i only worked a few months in my life and saved 90% of what i earned.I go to uni and home, i haven't had a friend in years and i haven't had a real friend since i was 14.So my life is pretty lonely but i live near nature and i have several pets.It is extremely rare for me to talk to women my age but i get along with older women just fine.
Spend my days watching animu and playing vidya. Sometimes read stuff. Learning German at the moment. Work a day or two every two weeks doing landscaping, 99% NEET aside from that. Easy life.
Granted, I used to be constantly depressed and suicidal, but that stopped once I stopped trying to base my worth on whether or not roasties valued me.
>but that stopped once I stopped trying to base my worth on whether or not roasties valued me.
That's not how it is for me at all. I've never based my worth on what w*men, or anyone thinks of me. I am just sickened by the societal problems we face, and once my best friend is gone my final tether to the world will be gone with him. I know I should just try not to think about it and enjoy the years I have left with him, but it's hard to ignore sometimes.
God damn, look at that little fuck with the bowl cut. I used to be him. All happy and stupid. That's why I haven't killed myself, I remember how good things used to be and I've fooled myself into thinking I could be what that kid I used to be thought he'd grow up to be.
I really don't know, there's nothing to live for but I don't have a good excuse to an hero. I almost did it at one point. Just like with your rooster, I thought I would do it once my dog died. The day it happened (two years ago), I had a loaded gun in my mouth ready to pull the trigger. But for some reason I couldn't do it. Oh that's right, because just as I was about to do it I recalled that I had received a letter from someone I'd been talking to online not going to lie, it was a girl, although I didn't know this at first, and I decided to open it, and it made me very happy to read it. And then I had a feeling that I could make a new friend to ease the pain of losing my old friend, so I didn't do it. But some months later I stopped talking to this person, because online relationships can only go so far. It's almost like fate suddenly intervened to keep me from suiciding, but then carefully led me back into misery.
> Sometimes read stuff. Learning German at the moment. Work a day or two every two weeks doing landscaping, 99% NEET aside from that. Easy life.
How much do you earn doing landscaping and what do you actually do?What sort of books are you reading?I would recommend a book called "Sumerian swindle" it talks about how money lending caused a huge difference between people and enabled degeneracy in the ancient times.
>That's not how it is for me at all. I've never based my worth on what w*men, or anyone thinks of me
I don't care what people think of me but i still desire female companionship.I would be fine with every other woman looking down on me as long as i had a faithful wife.Having a spouse is one of the 8 needs of a human being right there with clothing, food and shelter.
Here are some suicide statistics.The ones who are most likely to kill themselves are middle aged white males aged from 45 to 54.But i think that suicide is really high for young adults aged 18-20 as i know about several suicides involving men around that age.Statistics can't show that accurately here because they include males between 15-24 and suicide is extremely uncommon for underage males which is driving down the average for that group.
I don’t hate living and would gladly spend the rest of my days doing what I’d like to do personally if I had the means to do so. Eventually I’d like to just go off the grid and see if life without most technology and the worries of everyday life is truly better. Besides things like school and wage-slaving I enjoy watching anime, reading, messing around with hobbies, etc
>Why haven't you succumbed to suicide yet?
I dunno. But recently I've been getting the feeling that it won't be long.
Hopefully before the end of the year.
i try to live to be like my young self would have liked myself be in the future
not in terms of achievements but as a person
waiting for the end of society and for ai/the singularity to arive. ai will be the conclusion to our modern society, including that lovely family in the op. i made a thread about my thoughts but its archived >>260266
the birth of ai is why you dont commit suicide
I'm mainly here because of my sister and my parents. Aside from them, I feel that I could live out my dream of becoming like gondola and truly living life just to observe different things.
Also, I've always wanted to get fit and live the ubermunsch or stoic lifestyle
Human performance is exactly 5% error rate? Sounds like bullshit to me.
It may be hard bit gove up on your desore. It'll only bring you more pain, get attatched to a waifu makes it easoer but if you can't do that then you'll have to muster up your willpower (also don't do NoFap)
My i and o keys are fucked up please ignore the typos.
Every time I see this shit I have to play the game in my mind of "Is this the eunuch faggot or the pickle."
I wouldn't want to hurt my family. I can also still sometimes have fun when playing vidya or watching anime although they aren't as fun as they used to be and I don't really want to do anything nowadays.
I know everything is just going to get worse and I'm never going to make it to old age so if I don't die from something unexpected I will probably kill myself during by my 30s.
I secretly hope things will get better somehow. A new civil war maybe? Fuck this jewish owned shithole.
>Why haven't I have succumbed to suicide yet?
=Why would I listen to evil?=
Masturbating excessively just makes the problem worse from my experience. It's better to just cut it out from your life if you've been doing it for too long.
or berhaps a turd party?
>But some months later I stopped talking to this person, because online relationships can only go so far. It's almost like fate suddenly intervened to keep me from suiciding, but then carefully led me back into misery.
Online relationships don't work because it's much easier for women to get a date than it is for men.I had an online "girlfriend" when i was 14 but i never met her since i was too young to travel at the time.When we got older her social life spiked so she would treat me badly, leave and come back to me when things got bad for her.She remained a virgin even 9 years later for religious reasons but she would suck off guys at club bathrooms.One day a guy will marry her and think that she was a good girl because her hymen is still intact but she gave blowjobs to at least a dozen people.
I finally cut contact with her but she managed to find my home address and call my mother.We then talked for a few months until i told her to leave me alone for good.She wanted to visit my country and have sex with me but i was not going to risk even more trouble than she already caused to me.
My advice is to stay away from online relationships.Women who do them are all insane and sluts.
Is pic related a picture of your rooster?
>When you see Anon's big black cock
>Why haven't you succumbed to suicide yet?
because I'm a Narcissist and a Sociopath
sure, I don't find living agreeable, but at the same time I hate you all a lot more than myself, so should I kill all of you
I would like for things to work but I don't want them to work for the people in the system, I want them to work so that they work for its own sake
I only enjoy the short dopamine kicks wherever I get them
I live for nothing but to die
Oh I'm well aware of this by now. The only reason I even ended up falling for a 3dpd whore is because she fooled me into thinking she was a guy until I had become attached, otherwise I never would've bothered.
>but she would suck off guys at club bathrooms
You should have dropped her the moment she told you about this the first time. Actually you should have dropped the moment she started using you as an emotional tampon, but that's a hard call to make. The blowjob is a clear alarm bell. But at least you've learned an important lesson.
I grew up in a country where everybody expects women to be virgins. It really opened my eyes to bullshit like no hymen no diamond. You would think that it would be a wholesome society but women were just as degenerate. They would suck dicks and take it up the ass all through high school. They would even fuck and then get hymen restoration surgeries, or devise some trick to make fake blood, or lie to their husband and say they just don't bleed.
It's useless, there's no such thing as an inherently good woman. All women turn to sluts if left to their own devices. The only hope for women is total control by men. Even then they will be degenerates at heart, but the degeneracy will be contained and prevented from doing damage.
>You should have dropped her the moment she told you about this the first time. Actually you should have dropped the moment she started using you as an emotional tampon, but that's a hard call to make. The blowjob is a clear alarm bell. But at least you've learned an important lesson.
I did drop her when i heard about the blowjobs.She became honest really late when i was already growing fed up with her.It was hard to drop her before that as she would try to guilt trip me and i knew her for a very long time so it was hard to get rid of her.
Ah, it sounded from your post like she told you about it and gradually revealed more details over time afterwards. Good on you then.
>It was hard to drop her before that
Yeah, I know. It's one of those things that everyone knows they should do but nobody does. Guess some lessons are learned only by experience.
Anyways, good riddance m8. Once women realize they have you hooked, it's only downhill from there.
I can always kill myself later if I decide to. I can't come back from the dead. I'd better be very, very sure before I do it.
>a new civil war
This year or the next.
Probably gonna start in summer.
>This year or the next.
Probably gonna start in summer.
Where do you guys get this idea that the average niggercattle is capable to organize and fight among each other on a scale larger than small gangs?
Christian morals, and only the weak take themselves out, the strong are still alive today because of millions of genetic endurance and survivability, I am strong, I'm not going out without a fight, what's the point of killing yourself when you can go out like a hero by fighting for a cause that will be worthy so that people won't have to experience this degenerate world anymore that you have experienced
Your line of reasoning makes no sense unless the definition of "civil war" is exclusively "a well-organized series of military engagements between major competing factions in one nation." Like >>307313, I'm betting on this Summer, but who knows how it'll actually start. We know everything's fucked, so it's a matter of a lot coming together whether the spark be economic collapse or something else.
>Your line of reasoning makes no sense unless the definition of "civil war" is exclusively "a well-organized series of military engagements between major competing factions in one nation
Ok name one civil war which was not a well organized series of military engagements between major factions sponsored by someone?You can't because you are just talking out of your ass.The average American is obese, has no strong family values, political or religious beliefs.The only thing uniting Americans against anything is state sponsored propaganda against whites and the state is not ready to genocide whites yet.
A vast majority of all civil wars have only had a small minority of people on each side actually involved in combat. Your assumption that even 5% of White Americans needing to be /fit/ and armed is blatantly wrong. Even if only 0.1% of White Americans are capable and willing to fight, that's still 150,000, which for a partisan/guerilla force is extremely high.
I stick around and try to find a tolerable job, because I think things will get better once I got a rigid schedule and money to spend on frivolous shit. Other than that, I have a lot of morbid curiosity and I want to see the decline with my own eyes.
>I stick around and try to find a tolerable job, because I think things will get better once I got a rigid schedule and money to spend on frivolous shit
Working sucks but i hate being unemployed because i can't even afford to change my keyboard and computer screen.I hope for the same thing and to some day save enough money to be self sustained.Basically i want to buy a piece of land, build a small home there and grow enough food to survive.
ai is decades away. yeah they can fit arbitrary functions. but thats about it. no learning transfer. no actual "intelligence"
The thing is that those guerrilla groups had actual widespread civilian support. White nationalism is a small movement and even with all of the white nationalists combined you would still only have enough people for one guerrilla force. Without civilian support there is no civil war, there is no civilian unrest and widespread protest of the establishment, only a huge group of "domestic terrorists" that the country would universally be for eliminating.
The only thing I could see causing some sort of rebellion is a sudden gun ban/grab. However, if guns are ever banned in America it won't be a sudden ban, but a slow methodical erosion (so that the masses don't notice). Even the best case scenario is a bit of a reach.
>The only thing I could see causing some sort of rebellion is a sudden gun ban/grab
It wouldn't happen.People are cowards who just run their mouths but in reality would do nothing if police came to their door demanding firearms.
Know that when Russians were being raided by KGB and were being sent to gulags hardly anyone rebelled.
>hardly anyone rebelled
Another blatant lie. Tons of people rebelled in the early stages, including hundreds of thousands of peasants forming anti-communist brigades. The rebellions failed, but they still happened.
>Another blatant lie. Tons of people rebelled in the early stages, including hundreds of thousands of peasants forming anti-communist brigades. The rebellions failed, but they still happened.
I am aware of anti communist groups but those people were a small minority in every communist country.Most people just accepted their faith and never attempted to fight back.A similar thing happened to French resistance movement during ww2.They pussied out and only became brave when Germans were losing.A wast majority of people won't fight unless they are certain of their victory.
The French in WW2 aren't a good example since the Germans had the support of a majority of French citizens, and those who supported the anti-German resistance were an extreme minority.
For the Russians, even though only small numbers physically resisted later on, a majority of them hated the Soviet government. And in the beginning it wasn't just a small number of people resisting them - up until 1922, hundreds of thousands of peasants, who had implicit support from a majority of the population, revolted against the Bolsheviks before finally being beat.
I'm absolutely confident that in America the government will be completely destroyed in revolt. The situation here is vastly different to that of the former USSR and other marxist countries.
People have been doomsaying about imminent civil war since before cheetoh man got elected. What makes this summer so special? There aren't even any major western elections happening this year at all.
my waifu, i have a hope one day i will found a girl like her.
I intend to live long enough to enjoy my vindication. Beyond that, I don't give a shit either way.
>I'm curious to see how tech will evolve in the next few decades
>don't want to hurt my mom
>my cats make me happy
>online social interactions make me forget how isolated I am
>there will be a mars landing in this century
>suicide takes effort
>death is scary
why kill yourself and risk eternal damnation and give more room and liberty and less resistance to the degrading of the world while you could watch it waste away or better yet, lay waste to the degenerates themselves
there are many reasons to kill one self but i never understood only your own, if your going out by yourself you clearly don't have any regard for god, faith or morals, so why don't go out in a bloody mess of the people who made this the only way to escape for you ?
>why kill yourself and risk eternal damnation
Don't particularly care
>and give more room and liberty and less resistance to the degrading of the world
It's going to take a lot more than what I can do to unfuck this shit, frankly
>while you could watch it waste away or better yet, lay waste to the degenerates themselves
Tempting but not particularly realistic. Also, there's something to be said for just letting them burn in the fires they set.
For all the retardation that the sandniggers have created, one thing they got right is making it seem glorious to be a martyr and take some infidels with you.
If every White man who killed themselves out of despair instead took even just a handful of kikes and shitskins with him, it would be much better today I think.
Maybe, but a martyr for whom and what exactly?
I am not necessarily suicidal but there was a period of time when I was, I never told anyone in my personal life about it but I'm fairly certain I had some sort of depression for around 8 months, now I mostly stopped feeling such sensations and emotions but in consequence that has made me feel incredibly bored with my life, it feels so repetetive and I feel incredibly jaded. The only thing that really keeps me going is my personal ambitions and such, if it weren't for them there is a fair chance I probably would have commited suicide by now, however these suicidal feelings in their own right do help sometimes as it makes me notice that no situation is truly impossible to go through as I can simply kill myself. If I went through too much I can just shoot myself, the only Hell that I wouldn't be able to go through is continuing to suffer while not being able to end it, such as being physically tortured but not able to commit suicide.
I'm here to ask you guys.. What should I do before killing myself? Like, the last thing they will remember about me.
That depends, are you spiteful against the World? Are you just depressed because of it? Your feelings towards the World should determine the final choices you make in your Life, that is if you do believe in the existence of Free Will. If you hate it then you might as well commit a mass shooting, if you are just sad you could try dying somewhere alone with a brief period of Hedonism before that happens, I might be able to give you better advice if you told me what you regard as wrong with this World.
>What should I do before killing myself?
kill as many people as possible
Whites should be martyrs for Hitler and NS, obviously.
why kill yourself and risk eternal damnation and give more room and liberty and less resistance to the degrading of the world while you could watch it waste away or better yet, lay waste to the degenerates themselves
there are many reasons to kill one self but i never understood only your own, if your going out by yourself you clearly don't have any regard for god, faith or morals, so why don't go out in a bloody mess of the people who made this the only way to escape for you ?>>308329
hey ! im a sandnigger but nonetheless >>308329
hey ! im a sandnigger
but nonetheless i understand your view of point but you should know everyone is pretty cucked right now even for sand niggers, unironically we suffer from pretty much the same problems europe and america has, mass immigration of niggers cause the fucking sea connects them to us and low-mongrel-tier arabs for fucking up their land by revolting and pussy out of actually fighting a civil war they started or just simply being very liberal which hasn't really worked anywhere let alone the middle east and destruction of heritage and family values, and religon and religous figures being supressed… and the feminsts thing becoming a reality here because the change of rule in my land to this fucking prince kid who want to degrade everything and everyone and remove any kind of first loyalty to god, religon and land by elimanting all that and making himself god, religon and land
everyone has the diffrent view which distortes anyone from seeing what's actually going on even if it's their land cause the media and liberty-mongrels shill for the same cause and reason the jews want, so if you think you're the only getting fucked you should be relieved you're not the only one
Hmm. You first, buddy.
Death is submission; men do not submit.
Robots too… Unless you are coded to self destruct; in which case your master failed you.
Would you rather submit to wageslavery? In a time when the only options to live are submissive by that logic, the only way to be a man is to die. Otherwise live in the woods, but you aren't doing that are you?
The fuck you on about mate? I haven't worked in 5 yrs.
Rather live in a tent, hunt my own food and bum wifi from the library then be a wageslave; that's what I did all night. Pull a lawn chair up and take a squat.
You would be surprised how supported vagrants are in liberal strongholds.
Also helps when your family is a bunch of degenerates that need help raising kids and caretaking for the elderly. Got by for years just babysitting kids and managing some caretakers before they got too old and I couldn't slum anymore.
Only jobs I ever had I enjoyed, were good for me and benefited the community I live in. Only once I ever felt like a wageslave; I quit on the spot. I despair the thought of a living a life where I am not true to myself. The truth is no one has to do anything they don't want to do.
Also you forgot the third and forth option; start a business and be your own boss.
Or be a literal slave; the type that deserves it. Kill someone with a different belief system or rob a bank. Then you get free meals everyday and a community that can relate to you(not like anyone in prison gets any real girls either xD) lololol you can even learn skills you are interested in.
The 4th option is especially great for addicts of any kind seeking stability; whether your fix is sex, media, food, self isolation, drug and alcohol (except gambling!)
And its what I regularly recommend to tweekers and crackheads that can't get clean and are slowly killing themselves in the most degenerate and humane way now imaginable. Better to go rob a bank and have a clean home with free food and forced human interaction then be a degenerate addict imo.
But I doubt any of you are the latter; probably just a bunch of porn, vidya, media food and alcohol addicts is what I am speculating.
Also I would argue if one is self aware of being part of the system in place it eliminates the possibility of the slave because they are choosing to submit, thus a willing participant; a player if you will.
And based on that logic as long as someone is aware they already have an advantage and get to play the game of life several steps ahead of most people whom don't see their chains and are literal slaves to the powers at be.
Freedom is being aware; nothing more. What someone does with that awareness is freedom.
Death is the same sort of freedom to those that are aware; its no more or less different then choosing to submit to the system. It is an act of submission but it's an act the individual chooses for themselves. Freedom is a matter of perspective and to be honest if there is nothing inside a person then I understand why they would kill themselves rather then lead an empty existence; not alive or dead but enslaved to a flesh sack.
For a robot it would be the only true solace. Which is why my advice sucks so much; here I am, a real boy trying to communicate in beep bops to a bunch of 1 and 0s just hoping some of you might still believe in 2 x.x
Find peace and meaning In the arts, my rooster loving friend. If it's music, drawn, or wood creation, it'll never betray you. Creation is will always be by your side. Stay strong rooster lover!
That's not a rooster that's a vagina
>Why are you still here?
Because they are weak.
You don't identify as a member of the /r9k/ community?
if you are so tired of life the good part is that it will eventually end anyways so why not just give your best shot to either enjoy it in your own way or fuck the occupation forces the best way you can
or do both at the same time
You mean an actual girl?
You are a patehic.
If Suzuha is your waifu, I have some pics that might interest you. Unfortunately I don't have that many of her.
Refer to the post below
It's nice place for nice peoples..
>The world in 2019 is sick.
And full of information to help cure the sickness.
Learn, smile, do better, watch this https://www.thepiratebay.org/torrent/21790461/Europa__The_Last_Battle_(2017)_Heavily_Censored_Documentary
They call it eternal suffering for a reason.
I'm just waiting for the great boogaloo to finally happen.
what song is this?
The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I can't. I don't have the means to do it safely, quietly and quickly since I'm pretty much a prisoner in my own home for being "a danger to myself and potentially to others as well".
>safely killing yourself
I know what you mean but I can't help but find this funny.
>a tolerable job
Is there such a thing? I'm disgusted with the idea of waking myself up at an unnatural hour to go work anywhere.
I am still here because I hope for something and I am still young. I hope that something big, world changing happens soon, so that I actually really have to struggle to survive that I have something to live for. Or I hope that I discover a passion so I can create something with it and out of it. If neither of these two happen before I am ~30 I will shoot myself in the head or something spectacular alike and if this place is still around I will stream it for your entertainment.
>Is there such a thing?
Yes, if you're a normalfag or have some greater desire that you want money for enough to slave away day after day. Very few people actually like working, but most have some long-term purpose why they keep doing it, as well as the mental and social faculties for it not to be a painful and mind-numbing act like trying to walk through a wall forehead first.
Please hold off on killing yourself for at least 5 years. We are fixing everything.
I desire to live through the collapse and discover what's on the other side. There's a saying that destruction begets creation, after all.
What is your badge number, officer?
I didn't say anything illegal. Cry more.
Because I don't have access to guns and all the other methods are too scary, if any american here has guns and wants to suicide pact I'll gladly travel from europe to die.
If I ever get the money for two pistols then I'd gladly do it with you. I've got no job at the moment, also no gun license but that shouldn't be hard to either get or get past.
Perfectly worded! My plan exactly.
Daily fucking reminder that Amerikikes have no reason to complain since they can easily acquire a gun (at least in the majority of the states) and check out at anytime.
Yurofags have a hard time to an hero on the other hand.
I know it can be a hard thing to do, but if you're creative and resourceful like me, you can figure out many different ways of offing yourself. It doesn't need to be perfect, just good enough. There's a tall parking garage by where I live and I plan to kill myself in the next day or so. I just need to get everything in order first. Wish me luck robots.