I considered putting this in the FTDDTOT thread, but I think more than enough robots wrestle with this same question that we could generate plenty of discussion from it.
I'll start by sharing what has become an "average day" for me recently:
>wake up around 9-10AM
>take anywhere from thirty minutes to an hour just to pull myself out of bed
>don't get anything to eat for at least an hour because I just don't want to
>fill my time throughout the day browsing the internet, listening to music, daydreaming, or just staring into the abyss
>sometimes I will watch an episode of a show to pass some time
>still play video games, but can only go for about an hour or two before losing interest
>force myself to eat something for dinner, still don't really want to but my body needs food I guess
>my nights consist of either wasting time in the ways stated above, or fapping until midnight then going to bed
For context, I'm a 26 year old NEET with no friends and I live with my parents. I have nothing to live for and nothing to work towards. I have no motivation, no drive, and no ambition. Whenever I give myself something productive to do, I give up after a short while because I always end up at the same question: "What's the point?" Over the years I've tried a wide variety of things to try to fight off the feelings of nihilism. I used to try to study and learn things, to exercise and set goals for myself, but I just can't find a reason to care about anything anymore. I don't necessarily want to kill myself either, I'm going to die eventually anyway so I don't feel a need to rush into it.
So my question to my fellow bots, and the point of this thread, is what are we living for? I'm sure many of you here are much like me, simply going through the motions, but for the bots here who have found some kind of reason to keep pushing, what is it? What keeps you going when you know most things in life are complete waste and nothing you do truly matters?